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i'm in my home away from home after my head wanting to explode while weeding out all the things I did right in my life but fucked it up by doing the wrong thing trying to do the right thing. And trying to work out where it is I actually make the mistake - cause it seems the point where I decide to be rational and moral and good everything goes to shit - cause I am not that kind of person. For example about four years ago I got married. Shortly after I went off to DJ somewhere and ended up on the bed of a guy who I personally think is one of the hottest things ever. Before anything literally juicy happened, I stopped and said I can't. Then went to sleep on the sofa. When I came back to London I told my new husband and he said he didn't care what I did. I was a bit shocked. So where was the mistake? Stopping? Or failing to realise I was married to the wrong guy? Or trying to force myself into thinking I could even be a good wife? He said I was a good wife for the record. But that was all such a long time ago.

Brunch is here. Lucky for you and my mental ramblings.

Xx Lektrogirl